This is `US`
Saturday, September 15, 2012
Meet up the boyf ytrd ,it seem like so long we never get to be together . we actually meet up everyday at college . but just we are too used to accompany each others like 3 or 4 days once . went genting with him again , he is sick yet he force himself to bring me up there . i am happy i am touched but i didnt mention . went back his home , we stay inside his room . he actually asked me do i love him , i answer : i dont . he requested me to say again just because he wanted to record down . i watched back the video , and realize when we both together , we are seriously cute to each other . I used to request him to gave me a simple life , he did it but yet now i complicated it . just sometimes i dont know what i am thinking , and after yesterday night i realize he is the one , and the only one who understand me the most even more than me myself . somehow , i keep gt the feeling that giving up on our relationship , yea , i love him ! i do , i even can sure that no one love him more than me except his family there's no one . so i dont know what is the reason i wanted to gv up . yet , after chat with him yesterday . he told me that , i just too scare of one day he will be leaving me , so before `that day` , i leave myself . after he told me these ...... i think and think ... yea , seriously ! is already one year ...almost one year friend-best listener-couple-stranger-friend-more than friend-stranger-friend-more than friend-couple . this is our relationship within this one year . so can you guys feel that how hard we get to be together again ? i wanted to appreciate , but my mind was weak . i could not control it , at the same time he did . He and me is actually the very same kind of ppl to each other . he like to say is his fault when problem comes to us , and me too ! i knew , we should appreciate what we have . do not simply think , sometimes over-thinking and insecure feeling are killing .... but come on , we have to fight it . i dont know will you still come and read my blog like how u did before my dear hubby boy ! all i wanna say is , I AM STILL LOVING YOU ! like how you told me everyday !
