Thursday, September 6, 2012
Turn up here again peeps . took abit quite long time to blog here again . very sorry . but seriously everytime i did think about my blog just i have totally no idea what to blog . Sem break ended and new sem started . before that , went USS with the boyf , and there was perfectly amazing ,not to mention much but thank dear for everything. yet about now , i started the da ma cai promoter job for quite a times . done 6 days work out of 9 . 3 more days to go alright!!! this job was pretty awesome just because the salary was high , working hours was short , all the aunties that i met from 2 diff outlet was pretty nice , BUT BUT BUT ...... is seriously tired tired and TIRED ! kay kay kay , back to yesterday . as everyone know my body health was quite `strong` . always sick sick sick and SICK since i am small even till NOW ! wtf ? is this fair to me ? blood lacked of vitamin caused my skin full of scar ? wtf ?gt asthma since i am small , i just totally dont like my weak body to the MAX okay ! well , face to the reality . i should accepted it ! AT LEAST , everyone treating me quite good because of my weak body ! so thanks ? -.- as i mentioned yesterday ? yesh , get sick again . i was like WTF ? so suffer can . text the boyf and i think he is swimming still . at last he replied but we had small argument . sometimes i really didnt know is my fault or his ? doesnt matter . he ended up apologize and i continue resting . everything was like fine . but i am such a weirdo seriously , i still like `cari pasal` like that . ask him izzit he angry ? huh! seriously here , sometimes i will think like whether we are suitable ? but no such things okay kher yi ! i always offend which some others who told me that he/she with his/her boyf/girlf is not suitable because of attitude problem ? i screw this excuses TTM . here come i think me and my boyf like that . but calm down when u read until here . i am perfectly okay . just sometimes i dont know whether what caused he think that he is a fail boyf ever , i still remember that when i first met him , he story me bout him and his ex , he having quite much of confidence that he is a best boyf ,at the same time i think he is and he really do . but now was like nope i mean he never think like this again, i wish his confidence will be back . i believe i might caused this problem out , i am that kind of girl which not easy to angry even if angry i will turn up okay just moments the most an hour ? i always chose to kept it inside my heart and this is what my boyf hate the most i knew it !but honestly i hate the feeling being neglect . i knew he doesnt want to and he didnt meant to be neglect me. but ........ ? i wish to kick the unsecure feeling away seriously . this is what killing me the most .even will think like whether one day after we break up ( I DIDNT MEAN I WISH TO ), turn up to stranger ? because i could not believe i will be back a good friend with my EX ? no such thing ! but who knows maybe i will . then that time is seriously i will feel like LONELY ? this is what all human scare , not only me kay ! without HIM ,
i think no one will hold my hand tight when i am sleeping
- no one will not angry me when i keep pull the blanket turn up he gt seriously flu next day
- no one will take care of me the whole night when i having gastric or hand injury just to watching me sleep well and forcing himself not to sleep ?
- no one will help me ate all the foods i left until now he actually increase 2kg - no one will play paper , scissors , stone and the winner can be slapping the loser face with me
- no one will be hugging me tight when i am crying like a baby
- no one will stand infront me to be protecting me when i am shy ( okay , this maybe not , coz he is the one who made me shy always)
- no one will pinch my face just like that inside the lift and everyone is looking - no one will act like he is faint just to watch how stupid am i to believe him
- no one will rush to my place when my hamster was dead he came to comfort and pack them just like that
- no one will appear when i am crying like hell at public place and he appeared not even need more than 10 minutes
- no one will be going USS and be my tour and holing my hand like i am his child for the whole day long !
- no one will rush to ipoh using not more than 1 hour plus just to fetch me back .
that's much more thing but i believe still no one will do that with me .
yea , i knew it ..... NO ONE !
