Better me !
Thursday, December 27, 2012
I always want to be a better friend , better daughter , better sister , better girlfriend and better me . i dont know whether i did ? but the more i try my best to do a better person , the more i neglect myself . I never know since when i forgot to love myself more , treat myself even better i used to pamper myself much .... I USED TO ! since primary school , i am way too lucky in everything ... have a big bunch of friends , every special date i will received presents and surprise ! when secondary school , i never forgot that valentine days i used to receive many presents , and many of them without mention their name on the lil present they gave . some of them even delivery to my house , i knew it is a quite surprise things and i used to received this kind of surprise when 13 years old to 18 years old . its been 6 years , and i admitted i never once appreciate i been this lucky before . I always complained to my girlfriends that i hate this kind of life , i used to hate to received their present/surprise just because i scare i am owing them although i can 100% sure that they just want me to be a happy girl . I remember one day , i gt two very good guys confess to me and i cried because i didnt know how . i text-ed him , a guy who i used to chat with . so called best brother . I told him i am very tired of this kind of life , i hate peoples fall to me . he then told me back i should appreciate that got guys will fall in love to me and i should enjoy everything . i know he sounds bad to said like this and asked me to enjoy the special treat of the guys .. but he never meant that i knew , he just want me to be relax and happy ... sometimes i recalled back the life that past , i am really very very sorry to all of you ... I never once meant to hurt you all seriously .. no matter how many times sorry that i told you all but still i could not help i know . I been wasted 5 years of 3 guys , i felt so sorry . sorry that i used to be a lil girl that dont know what is love ! .............. and i am proud that you all appeared in my life . million thanks !
