2013
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
2013 ... finally past the freaking jan 1 .. a date that i hate the most . i couldnt even forgot how i past jan 1 2012 .. even till now .. every single things i remember .. very clearly ! so here come 2013 .. everything was like fine ... I tot .. but then it comes to midnight .. everythg was like chging .. just one short sentences .. but it's killed my mood ... very completely... maybe that u r not meant i am annoying or noisy .. you are just kidding .. maybe i am annoying or really noisy .. maybe .. maybe .. maybe .. but then to me i am hurt... i am kind of girl who happy because of lil thg .. maybe very easy to be happy ... but at the same time i am way too afraid of getting hurt ... maybe not much ppl hurt me before ... so i can get hurt easily ... turning up to 20 in twenty thirteen ... which means my life had past 19 years ... i been treated like a princess in this 19 years , friends and family ... In my family , maybe i am not the one who make them proud of , i used to think that mama pamper sister way more alot than me ... but i still think both of my dad and mum pamper me so much also ... everytime i tell them what i feel like getting i will be getting maybe not soon , but i will owned at last ... My bunch of friends , i always blame them how they bully me , how they tease but when problem on me , no matter my girls or buddies .. they will showed up immediately just for me ... some of them , no matter how i hurt-ed them before ... they still treat me very good even till now ... it comes the 20 years in my life , some of them complained to me i am chged ... not to good but bad .. even bad ... i am worse now .. honestly , i less feel like going out .. the outing was cut down to so less ... even my parents was wonder ... when at home , i like to hide inside my room .. alone or maybe with my baby molly .. watch drama everynight wiill do .. when some touching drama showing , i will cry .. very loud very loud all alone or hugging molly ... sometimes i feel like my life is ruined now ... when hugging molly , i will cry even harder ... i know she understand me .. i know she is the only one i can be accompany all the way i want ... thats the why i love her so much ... i hate being used by others , i hate hurt-ed by others , is not like i am kind of `da xiao jie` , just i dont think i deserved to be treated like this ............... it pains me alot ......... i just want to be a better me , get a better life , to be a happy girl i used to be ... IS-THAT-HARD ?
